Well, I, for one, am not sorry to see this year draw to a close. I have been on an emotional roller coaster since the dawn of last year, fighting San Francisco City Hall and Mayor Gavin Newsome and the massive budget cuts to the Department of Public Health. There was a subsequent loss of many services to the indigent poor, especially to the elderly and children of the city and, of course, hundreds of dedicated workers, many with years of service, such as myself ( 21 years as a forensic nurse ) joined the ranks of the unemployed.
Trying to make do, on a half time pension in the Bay area, has been a nightmare. While the four nurses in my agency covered around the clock, our benefits were only paid on twenty hours per week. We were given a per diem, higher rate of pay on the other hours, but did not receive benefits. Twenty years ago that did not seem so bad but retirement, at that time, seemed far in the future. Goodness, how the years flew by! Nursing always appeared to be one of those secure jobs where you were safe from layoffs and the whims of the budget. Social workers and therapists lost their jobs but nurses did not. Suddenly, all that has changed, even in the acute care setting which is most alarming. Fewer nurses are having to care for more seriously ill patients, without the assistance of qualified licensed vocational nurses and adequately trained staff. Patient care will suffer and fewer nurses will choose to enter the profession. It is a no win situation. I look back on forty years in the profession and think sadly of the changes I see.
So, farewell, 2009! I am putting it all behind me, with prayers that things get better for all in the New Year. I hope this world doesn't spin out of control and I pray that someone will see that peace is the answer. Children should live in a world free of bombs and hatred.
Don't be remiss in saying, "I love you." People need to know that when they are with you. The words ring hollow when you utter them at someone's death bed. Hug your children, encourage them, laugh with them, cry with them. Give praise where it is due. Lead by example. Try to leave this world a better place when you depart.
For all my family and cherished friends of a lifetime, I thank you for all your love and nurturing, especially during this past difficult year. For all the new blogging friends I've met since mid-September, I can't believe how much I've gained from you in so short a time. It has been quite a whirlwind and you have helped me maintain my sanity in the past ten months. Thank you so much.
Here goes another poem.
At The New Year
It doesn't seem quite possible.
A year has gone so fast,
As time is running out for me,
I try to make them last!
I guess it's true, that saying,
Time and tide don't wait,
But it wouldn't bother me,
If they would hesitate.
Are we in a better place,
Than last year at this time?
War still rages all around,
And we're overrun with crime!
I hope this world grows friendlier,
Starting, first, at home,
Then we must carry that spirit,
Wherever else we roam.
Keep your resolutions simple,
Things that add joy to your life,
Little changes often help,
Eliminate some strife.
As 2010 makes its debut,
I wish you the best of years,
My love to all of you and yours,
I raise my glass in cheers!
Carmen Henesy
Copyright (c) 2009 by Carmen Henesy
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